Dinosaur Bees

Black Ball
Lewis Gesner

A point or black ball- varying in size, but, round- and- black. The circle suggests that there is an even collapse from all directions, with equal force attracting to a center, or, pushing from the broad and surrounding exterior. There has been a first act or movement- of- concentration that made this- in this way. Now, there is residual affect after the formation- these affects may include a curiosity attraction- that- pull to- but- do not become absorbed- as they do not come EVENLY- they come to sides, to edges, in random places- to the full form- but, there is no general pull or push- so, after an even creation, there is a greater diverse possibility, and a possibility of sparse from, distinction by space- and separation- which does not exist in the concentration, the compressed form of the black ball-. There is also possibility of vicinity- the ball may itself move now, freely perhaps, through the surrounding stasis and equilibrium it has generated through the first act. The first act, of compression, and, generation- is simple- it is uniform, and there are no complex relationships- everything is forced to- or is pulled to- a point- a balance of attraction of repulsion occurs “equilibrium” of force- so that small, large, masses and volumes are compressed equally, with an equivalent force- from all direction- this occurs SIMPLY, because there is a balancing effect generated by abundance, (and overabundance- overpopulation of broad occurrence) and by vacuum, as abundance and vacuums occur- so, force is employed by circumstance, as the physical dynamic of material, circumstance, and action dictates- by its physics, in a natural way- force is goes to where it is not. It is sustained as long as there is no equilibrium- it is activated by imbalance- simple concentration- complexity occurs in its wake. It results additionally to curiosity attraction- which has to do with newness of such a concentration from an unevenly spread field- curiosity—there are other factors-

“resonant inertia”- this is an effect that is like memory- physical memory, and mind memory in beings- it is not based on a physical reenactment of an act or event, but, is generated as a score or plan AFTER THE FACT as in a documentary object- but- this object- can only be read as a supernatural trace- of a past- and may exhibit signs of loneliness- due to the trauma of exclusion. The loneliness- exhibits itself- in materials, and things as much as beings- let us not struggle to make that distinction- loneliness- is a behavior that dictates self diminishment, or, expansiveness, exploratory, outgoing behaviors, as well as digressive behaviors- as a result of boredom- to generate- to recapture that creation- through imitation of sorts- a thread may desire to become compressed into this ball- and search for inways- and, linger about it- as if waiting for an invitation- and- power attracts in its own way, not gravitation or magnetic in physic, as this is gone after equilibrium has been reach- force having found its of even distribution of itself- like these words, this struggle to description- is such a malingering- a hanging on- to an initial explanation that could be sufficient- but, not sufficient for the words that wish to follow- it is the same sense in one of the senses of the things that direct themselves toward a black ball concentration- as, there is no longer the first force- it has been absorbed into the density of the black ball, and, sustains it there- indefinitely- in a solid, immovable, stable state. It does not move in space, as objects that might or might not be in continuous movement, inward or outward, in “empty” space- in the universe- it is fixed and solid and in place in space in the same way as it is on the piece of paper on which it is drawn and described visually- it is not hypothetical, it is real- at my insistence, with my belief and faith and hope- it is fixed by that power, of a dogmatic will. Everything has stopped at the ball - and after its generation, all resumes, around it.

Gravity after the formation of the black ball does not come into play. It has through equal forces (adjusted, to inequality, and irregular need for variable force) in unequal surrounding (the demand of variable force desiring force to regain its own balance, stasis, and even distribution) regaining a uniform equilibrium first to the black ball (as a composite of the loose and the irregular, and, the gravitational individual, and, compounded), after formation through the attraction of force to an uneven state of environment- and the compulsion of those things, to be moved, by irregular occupancy of space, and by availability of a solution involving their own loss of selfhood as individuals and small, compounded groups, and, through the manifestation of LONELINESS as a motivational power of what I might call “willing-it-to-be.”

So, what of these forms that come, if not by gravitation of the black ball, to see, to be curious, to desire from their loneliness- to be as this ball composite- they circle it, the caress it- they dance ad behave certain ways for it, trying to find a path, or a way- to be of it- but not finding it- they, still of a gravitational nature- are attracted by other forces than, not gravitation- as the black ball emits none- and, is unresponsive to their attempts at seduction through their gravitation- so- they dance and perform- this second act in the wake of the black ball- by the matters excluded from the circumstance of the achievement of equilibrium and balance, and by the unfortunate fact of their -first-come-first-serve- and “order of urgency” by which forces took from the vicinity until stasis was reached- and, no more- as, the force was absorbed in this, as consistent with its own search for economy and balance- for purposes of the environment, the force is gone- it is now fixed, permanent, frozen and in one place, and, as it does not move or influence, it is no longer force- it sustains, but, much as a spirit- as memory of an act.

Then, the meandering elements, that search and dance and move- will gravitate, as they do- and, while striving to achieve a fixed association with the black ball, will be with some eventuality undetermined, by generating a force- massed- of LONELINESS, and, then, they too will find themselves in a space which has reach a great disparity of occupancy, and this force of LONELINESS will push or pull into another black ball- with the same results.

Beyond this, there is speculation beyond mine- available- like this attractive and stasis and generation of density in gravitational stasis- like this- speculation- as to what might occur- with the evolution of these multiple black balls- that, if repeated there may be a massive singular accumulation in the future- of performing- as performance- (to remind, that, this is a scoraton and graphic plan based principle at its heart) but- I think such an accumulation is unlikely with reason- these black balls lack gravity- they no longer exist in terms of their environment- so- they will occur and be “made” as the environmental occupancy and LONELINESS conditions prevail- but- there is no force to move them, as, there is no imbalance- once formed- because- IT IS NO LONGER THEIR PROBLEM!

Because of its absolute fixedness, its stillness- can we say that the black ball is in some way a death of all of its parts, and, itself dead? I think that death is the wrong word, though the concept may be in some ways close in our common understanding. The black ball is no more alive than it is dead- and it does not change- while death, as a thing dead- is subject certainly to change- to decomposition, to erosion of its characteristic natures. The black ball is the achievement of the striving for absolute value- performed by a physics of occupancy and attraction by the force of LONELINESS across spaces- the striving to be unified while governed by incomplete natures- the black ball is that achievement, as is the end point of Glancing at the Sun/ Light- it want to be all things, and one- unified- from a position of incompleteness- of, LONELINESS- and, the black ball- is the extinguishing of LONELINESS above all else. The contained, the composite of it has reached this state- which does not exclude the same for others- they may achieve this state too- but, among others, and not those that have become a part of a previous composite- they must find their own- through the course of the search, which draws them into compressed areas and densities of those others, attracted to the black ball for their purposes- but- it is not within control of these components- when and how this composite will be achieved- it is through the accumulated generation of the force of LONELINESS, and a sufficient density of these components that the spontaneous release of that force is made- and, a certain recognized activity, of movement that is characteristic of the search, of a particular kind of natures- that the physic “recognizes” and which stimulate the spontaneous generation of the event of the push or the pull to this compressed state of reestablished equilibrium. While Glancing at the Sun/ Light is of a personal natures with beings, there is also a physic to it- to the forces and motivations involved- that are not complex

compulsions as are the metaphorical model which is convenient for us to think in terms of, because, the rise to light is in so many ways a human driving, while there is not a comparison in terms of motivation between the push or pull toward the formation of a black ball, and, death, for instance. The drive to unity is not why beings are compelled toward death- it is dissatisfaction, and pain- while I distinguish LONELINESS from such pain or dissatisfaction- LONELINESS is a physic state that is descriptive of matter and circumstance, and a force that acts in spatial densities- and- faith, belief, and hope- that its fixity is real- and, encompassed in an envelope of believing- from an overseeing position- that of the artist, in a research of performance art cosmology- is what keeps this condition of the black ball permanent-.The belief that what appears to be a mind invention, and an abstract construct for purposes of guiding action- is in fact a physical existence of and an exhibition of power and force- and fixed matter- that is not subject to change in time, or does not need to move to be, is the proof of its existence- the power of a strong will with belief, and a field in which to develop and realize terms and values that is free from convention and received systems of previous, accepted fact- this is the basis of the physic that allows absolute values to exist outside of time and change, and relativity. There is nothing relative in the black ball. It is unto itself, and there is no better point from which to observe apart from it. Things become subject to the consequences of the field imbalance. Imbalance is caused by change, by movement, by conditions that involve the gravitational qualities of actions and things that act- gravity of things and acts is not even- it is odd, and on its own attempts to adjust continuously- but- this act leaves holes where previously something or some act was- filling one hole merely makes another from the relocation of its stopper.

An odd paradox will be that the drive to notate, to score, to graphically plan- for the iteration and manifestation of the black ball is much as the activities that come before the generation of occupancy values which cause the forces to take their notice- the search- for the means to use the black ball as a performance art generator is then like a kind of conjuring. It is willing the tendencies of imbalance to impact- by mimicking behavior, though it may be indirect, and, not an intentional mimicry. Yet, the force of LONELINESS is indiscriminating of the form in which the conditions for its activation take- it is only interested in a specific kind of occupancy density and the behaviors that make it- as the sign of a state or threshold that is being reached- that will cause the force to be released again- .

LEWIS GESNER is a writer and artist living in Taiwan. He exhibits and performs internationally, and is a member of Mobius artist group out of Boston, MA, US. He has a book titled In The Shadow of the Still Hosts available from Whiteskybooks.

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